I truly think i cant handle people anymore. like i have social anxiety or something. I suck at talking and i always say something wrong. and then end up making a fool out of myself and in the end hurting myself. since i feel like i legitimately have no friends whatsoever, that i can safely talk to, i feel like i need to start holding it all in. even though as of right now i'm not. i don't know, i just find comfort in telling friends really close to me, like a feeling of safety, when in reality they'll stab me in the back any chance they get.I just feel sick and unwell. i want to revert and go back to when i was depressed and sad, these feelings have been happening often.:eh

I feel like i'm loosing everyone. everyone is just vanishing..

For anyone i have hurt in the past, i truly am sorry, i feel like poo everytime i think about you or anything that has happened.

 

I'm here if you always need me, you're amazing, and everyone should think so, don't let anyone get you down. <3