I suggest u edit only one more time, listen to what others say but YOU, make the decision that u think is gonna be best for you. Now, don't take this as a, " Do what you want", Take others Advice, But i suggest you should stop editing. Make one more final edit and that should be it. I really do support you, and that is why i am trying to give u the most / best advice. Good Luck <3
I'll add to his input; Listen to what others suggest, but don't let people push you around and disrespect you outright as well. I was staff and dealt with a lot of annoying folk, but I had to remain both assertive yet respectful/calm.
I already told you my main suggestions :P I refused to apply for be active on the server until the staff team is fixed, however.