A shout for help, I guess... (Please don't read if easily triggered by depresssion)

So recently I have had some weird thoughts...
Mainly depressing thoughts. And it's scaring me. I have really bad thoughts about if my existence even matters, and am I a waste of space? I zone out a lot and most people tease me for it. I've been wondering what the point of life is, y'know? I feel unsteady, unsafe. As if I'm so vunerable. It would be so easy to end it here, so hard to continue. The music is my only friend, no one else understands. My minecraft friends are so far away, and it's not fair. We understand each other so much, but live so far. Once I get onto the computer and begin to play with in game friends, they go away. If anyone can help with these suicidal thoughts, please help. I understand that this isn't a place for people to complain, it's gaming forums. I deleted all my social media because I was being cyber bullied (Apart from instagram: budderxxchar).
People keep telling me to stop going on minecraft for a week or so, but they don't understand that if I do, my thoughts become overwhelming and scary.
Another thing, if someone comments, 'idc kill yourself,' or shiz like that, I will take no notice, because you don't understand. Other people take notice though, and even though you didnt lay a hand on them, you are a murderer.
Thanks a lot, so if anyone knows why these are happening or what I can do to stop them, please comment or PM me.
~Budder

 

Nothing matters. You will die and be forgotten about and if not you will be remembered for what? As long as the human race exists? I don't believe in God so I don't need anyone replying to this comment please. But I think after you die nothing happens and that's it, although I hope it isn't, it is what I believe. Although none of that matters really just live your live and try have fun, take up hobbies, play sports, learn how to play instruments. If you can't do that then work on anything else, even doing some pushups every day will make you stronger and make you feel better about yourself. I think about those sort of things all the time but I've learned to not let it scare or bother me. If you're getting bullied do something about it, please tell someone. Once you finally admit it you will feel much better.

 

If you want to talk about these things, feel free to pm me. I'll happily listen and give advice. I've been through lots too, so I'll understand.

~Pizza

 

"Nothing Matters" , but go ahead and pick up some hobbies, play some sports, learn some instruments, and do pushups. Cause in the End Nothing matters.

LOL... your bringing tears to my eyes.

 

Way to completely misinterpret the message

 

Ah your 16 its a stage you'll get over it. We all go through it around that age. Its just hormones being hormones and making everyone miserable. Hope it doesn't last long. I've been in that stage for about 2 years.

 

Not all 16 year olds are depressed, though. Hormones play a very minor role in depression honestly. That's why adult can be depressed just as worse as teens, etc.

 

I don't know a single teen that has gone to a doctor for diagnosis for anything and not come back with a diagnosis for depression. And most of them are happier than I am. Its a normal thing for teenagers to feel depressed, its just a stage ya grow out of it eventually.

 

So I guess I am rare, because I have never been diagnosed with depression... xD

 

Well to be honest, that's pretty much what you just said.

 

I feel the same way. My life is bad too, my 0.8 million house burned down, my dad is an alcoholic, and he left my family running from the police. It will be ok. Stay strong.

 

I'm sorry, if you say "my life is bad" then you just sound like a complete a**hole.

 

Serious?? ._.

 

Sorry didn't think about that

 

Almost every teenager I know has gone through something similar to your situation. You're not alone in the world even though it might feel like it. Honestly finding the right person to talk to is the best way to get through this. High school is hard also. People are going to be s because they're immature and only think of themselves. I went through almost the exact same thing and I thought I wasn't going to make it but in the end I did, and so can you. Find a therapist/psychiatrist/school counselor/friend, explore hobbies and interests, stay away from self-harm, and focus on things that make you happy rather than sad. If you want you can PM about it too, I won't judge. You can get through this. <3

 

This is hard to respond to. I'm not sharing any personal stories because I feel like thats just privacy. But thats besides the topic. Maybe this is just a stage or something. I can't guarantee you will not stop thinking about this, but maybe you can do something fun to take your mind off of these thoughts. You don't have to listen to what others say like as you said people are telling you mean things and all that. In the end, those things are just opinions. There is no reason you should be offended or anything because they are just saying that to make you feel bad about yourself. Yes, it hurts your feelings and just makes you feel really angry, but you have an escape. Tell an adult about this. They will hopefully give you a talk about this subject and how to feel better about yourself. I've Never seen a thread saying this type of stuff so I'm not sure how i could reply to something like this. This is something personal that you didn't need to share with a whole group of people. Hopefully everything turns out good, but now all I'm going to do is say that you should definitely tell an adult about this. You can PM me if you would like to talk about this whole thing.

 

Instead of having to listen to some hate in this chat, would you mind PM'ing me about it? I love to help people in their time of need, and I will always listen and help you as best I can.
~Pizza

 

talk to me on skype

 

Stop. You'll never know someone's life until you're in their shoes suffering their own pain. Everything matters, everything has a purpose, everything was made for everything on this planet. In the end, something will always remember us when we're gone.

 

Wow. Make me even worse. I didn't even change the thread name, and I wanted help, not attention. Get your facts right.