My past

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    So, I would like to tell you about my past and how I let's say changed

    You all may know me as happy. I wasn't a lot of times

    So I'm going to a year before I started school, I would sit down and watch the wall all day. Then I started learning about hurtful objects.. then I started school. *Fast forward, three years later* I was bullied a lot and I knew about self harm, I started doing it. Then this day I get on the bus and get cussed out. I hurt myself on the bus, burning my hand. Then two days later happened again. Self harm became an everyday thing for me.. then this year, I stopped self harm for two weeks then started it again.. Two weeks later I have self harmed around 20 times.. Then a night I lay down, fall asleep with a belt around my neck. I soon told my mom after this, and I was forced to stop. I became happier but more and more in love with Mineverse and I was bullied on there and I wanted to self harm but my mom stalks me making sure I dont..

    Only one person knows about my suicidal thoughts but Im not tagging him..
     
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    Oh... I'm sorry
     
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    has your mom taken you anywhere to get help?
    depression is a serious issue and i know youre hurting but self harm wont solve your issues

    heres some sites to calm anxiety and distract you from negative thoughts
    heres my happy tag on tumblr, its mostly filled w cute animals n babies n other stuff to spread good vibes

    itll be ok
     
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    Im broke so I cant go anywhereeee
     
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    Bumppppppppppp
     
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    Yeh, ik how it feels, u get random idiots come up to u. It's happened to me, there was the random guy he would go up to me and say die in a hole.........
     
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    Try dealing with that every day of 6 years. ._.
     
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    Just be who u are, don't think about suicide, don't become Amanda Todd and if u don't know who Amanda is, she is a girl who drunk bleach and survived but then died by hanging herself, search up the video, it will make u cry, it's called: Amanda Todd's Story: Struggling, Bullying, Suicide, Self Harm. I hope you change ur mine about suicide :'(
     
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    Mind* my bad, I can't spell
     
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    Suicide is never the way its so sad to read this i feel so sorry for you :(
     
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    If there is anything i can do to help just ask me :)
     
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    I know suicide isnt the answer but it just feels right sometime...
     
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    NoMoreSadness, I used to self harm as a kid, because I hated the way no one liked me, I thought I was
    Weird so I needed something to take away the pain, something that would wake me up to a place I would
    Never be left out..... So many people want to die these days, 1/100 people approx have suicide thoughts...
     
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    Please make a promise to me that you won't ever self harm again. It is horrible what you have been through and I admire you for getting through it, you are a very strong young girl. Remember there are always people to go to for help and you are never alone with these things.
     
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    <3
     
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    BUmp I guess
     
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    ^^^
    Glad you told us this. You are an amazing person, Trin <3
     
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    I stopped self harming, it feels great. Please don't self harm, as you'll feel better.
     
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    I'm sorry you had to go through this, though, it is hard to stop self-harming when you do have depression.
    I had a friend who self-harmed and I was very hurt why they would do that.
    You should just have your head up and keep smiling, never go on the negative side. And if anyone says something negative, don't listen to them, and don't give a damn about what they say because it is all a lie.
    You're perfect for who you are and don't let anyone tell you different.
    :)
     

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