Hello fellow Minversers! Today I would like to publicly come forth, and apologize for my behavior over the past few months. In 2014, I hit another rough patch in my personal life. Just as always, the people I had cared of physically had changed and left me. So I turned to the only thing I loved at that time, which was gaming. I had joined my first Minecraft server after discovering the owner’s YouTube channel, and absolutely loved it. The community at that time was amazing. Full of people who were kind to me, and trustworthy. I quickly made a lot of friends, and soon felt like I was actually needed for once. Anyways, I soon applied for staff on there and was accepted out of 100 applicants. I was so happy which I hadn't been for a long time. But then one day I made a very silly, and stupid mistake. A mistake that would result in my alienation and demotion from this community, and change me for more than a year. I was devastated, truly. While it is just a game, that rank and community meant a lot to me. And the 200 people I called "friends" did as well, until I realized they were fakes. On top of this, I would face more personal issues dealing with family for the next year as well. As a result from these troubles, I became blinded with intense sadness and paranoia. This carried with me until I discovered Mineverse in September, 2015. My sadness was lifted a fair amount when I joined Mineverse. I started to change to my normal self, and improve. I met people like @Scorvix, and @Rodeenie, and @Janice999, and honestly loved it. But then I realized Mineverse had its issues, particularly with the staff team at that time. I was tired of seeing the disgusting hate given to the staff, and wanted to silence them by proving them wrong. So I decided to make a suggestion thread of it, and pushed really hard to try and fix things. All I wanted to do was to help Mineverse which I have grown attached to, but ultimately just became apart of the problem. I never disliked any staff member, nor the staff team itself. My intentions was to help, but I came off as an aggressive bigot which I have come to regret. I also decided to apply for Moderator on here in December, 2015. This was a time I started to become increasingly unstable, and the criticism I received I could not handle. It was all true, and I knew it. But I could never had admitted to this. I closed my app and felt devastated - much like I did in 2014. This would ultimately blind me in such a way it did two years ago. I realized what person I had become just last week, after hurting a dear friend of mine. I knew things had to change, and that I needed to change. I am sorry if I hurt anyone on here these past months. That was not the true me you spoke to, nor would I ever want to harm others. Please excuse my other toxic behaviors as well, as that was not me also. I'd like to publicly apologize to a few people whom I believe I've hurt: @CypriotMerks - I am really sorry for the behavior I have shown on your server, and the insults I gave your staff members. All I wanted to do was to help your server as best as I could, but all I really did was become apart of the problems. I am also sorry if I ever offended you. As I'll state time and time again, that was not truly me you seen. I hope you can forgive me, and thank you for everything you've done for this community so far. @Pile_of_Butts - I don't even know where to begin with you. I am very sorry of how I handled things with you, and for the disgusting things I said. I would have still spoke up for my friends, but I should've handled the whole ordeal more civilly instead of just blindly insulting you. I don't expect you to ever forgive me, but I do want you to know that I personally regret the decisions I made. You're a great Mod, and have done wonders to help Mineverse. Anyone who says otherwise is wrong, really. @Nanurz - I'd like to also apologize for the toxicity I displayed with you. That was not me you spoke to, truly. My views of you, however, still remain unchanged. You're also a phenomenal Mod, and have also done so many things to help Mineverse remain stable. I just hope you do not view me any differently. @Matt - My apologies if I ever did offend you. I should have just accepted your criticism of my staff app, rather than declare it useless. It's unfortunate I never had talked with you before, as you don't seem that bad of a person. @Coastic - I have so much to thank you for, I can't even put it into words. I don't even know how you're still friends with me after all the mistakes I made. That just goes to show what kind of person you are, really. You're so amazing, it is no wonder everyone loves you. I am so sorry for the stress and emotional ware I may have given you. You don't deserve it, nor ever would. My relationship with you is so cherished to me, and I'd never want to lose that. I also hope you don't view me differently as well. Thank you, for everything. @Mvdi @MrPronounce - Thank you guys for being there for me these past few weeks. They've been really hard. You guys are true friends, and are both beyond amazing people. I will never forget the support I received from you guys. <3 @Elrak - Sorry for that one altercation we had in December. You were just trying to defend a friend, which I understand. I am also sorry for viewing you as toxic, initially. You're actually a really great guy. Also, your change helped inspire me to do the same. Which I do thank you for that. @bruhgrier - You're great, and I thank you for the support you have also given me the past few months as well. Your words in general really did have an impact. @Janice999 - You also helped me realized I needed to change. I am sorry for not being there for you, and not talking to you for a while. Thank you for the words you've given me, and not leaving me due to my silly mistakes. @Rodeenie, @RebornWolf, @Scorvix, @DeltaMC, @Recyclinq, @Billy_Wolf, the rest of the Wolf Pack - You guys are truly awesome. While I made sure not to directly involve you guys in my personal issues much, I must say you guys did help me decided to rejoin MV fully. I was considering leaving as I told you guys, but your kind feedback helped convince me to stay and make such changes to myself. Thank you a lot for that, and I am sorry if I ever seemed upset at any of you guys over the past few months. @Nightfire - Same thing I said for Madi and Kyle. Thank you for being a great friend and helping me along the way. @Anyone else I have hurt - As I said, I have not been myself for a while. However, that changes starting now. Anyways, I thank you all for reading this! This community and its people do mean a lot to me, even if it never seemed that way. Mineverse has ultimately helped me improve upon myself, which I won't forget. Starting now, I will make sure I never make the mistakes I have made over the last year. Have a great days guys, and I hope I see you around! :D - S
I hope people actually take the time to read what you have to say, and forgive you for your mistakes. We all make them and yours are nothing compared to some, and are no where near unforgivable. Ily Steve. <3
I read this whole thing and I'm glad I was with you in this for the time I was, I truly have seen your bad and good side and I'm happy I did. Love you and hope you consider opening another application! <3
Thank you. Mistakes happen, we all know that. "If you don't make any mistakes, you have never tried anything new". You tried to get your word out, only for it then to seem like a mistake to you as it never went the way you planned. You then further applied. You personally know you, and I would definitely say that you would do good as a mod. Though, others will obviously think different due to past happenings. I hope they put that all behind them, see the good in you. See how you actually are, that you are good at what you do and eventually, given time, you will be accepted into the community with open arms.
It's nice to see you changing. We all have our good times and bad times. Some lasting longer than others'
Thank you, Madison. You and your words mean so much to me. <3 I hope people can look past any mistakes you made as well, because you're honestly a sweet, kind, and loving person. I didn't have time to mention you, so I made sure to fix that. ;) I am sorry if I snapped at you for not talking with me. It's actually a good thing you didn't during such dark times for me. :P Thank you for still being here, and I also hope people can look past the mistakes you have made. Thank you. No need to thank me, honestly. It was needed. Thank you for the words, Kyle. :D Same thing I said to Nanurz. Thank you for helping me realize my change. 9/11 very inspirational Very true. I am glad Cyp was able to look past the mistakes you had made as you're a great mod. :P My account on the community I left in 2014? I'll consider it. I need to increase my activity and begin making reports before doing so, though. :P
Hmm, I am afraid it'll be consider advertising (?) I could PM you a link if you want. It was permanently banned in January 2015, when I defended my friend from a cyberbully on there, though.
I never really noticed your unusual behaviour; but even if I did I knew you'd eventually make the choice to control yourself and change back to the original Steve. I'm glad I was able to help you through your tragic journey, and if you ever need someone for support you know what to do ;). hmu im always available. thank you btw; best friend :p x
