my writing skills are poo dont mention it <<<3333 I know this is late as hecky but i wanted to make an intro for you guys to see and to read on why i left for so long :3 My IGN is Seamus_carcrash First off my name is Elize and I live in Miami, Florida I am 13 years old. (Sorry bc I used to lie about my age oops) ever since i started minevrse a few years back i was so happy because i made so many friends and even enemy's turned to friends. i was so excited to come on everyday and just be a member of this sever. then i met Edgar (@xMinecraftElite) and he just made everything better. after a year or so of knowing him i met grayson and we may have fought but he is a very kind great person! lets back up a bit, before i met grayson i had a few.. ''difficulties'' at home causing me to self harm and fall into a great depression. it started in 6th, i am now in 8th, almost 9th. life got so rough that edgar couldnt make me happy anymore. that he was also sad and i felt as if it was my fault. so after everything building up, one day in math class i decided ''hey, lets go home and try to kill ourselfs..'' i did it.. i took over 100 of my moms medication that she took daily. I woke up in the hospital.. a few days later.. i was in a coma for 2 days. two frickity fracking days. i almost died. then i tried 2 more times. and continued to self harm after. i gained weight and was so unhappy with myself. my parents argued all the time but they did love me. when i was in 6th all i did was starve myself and play minecraft. I met ivan (@_NightShadows_) Lyla (@lylarw) and a few others that became my close friends. i was so depressed and sad everything irritated me I knew why this happened. It was my parents, I watched them become sad then angry for no apparent reason. It sucked a lot but I learned to keep myself calm and collected. But now after a long road of recovery im better. i go to a therpist every 2 weeks,i have irl and igf that make me so happy. im now back, and somewhat happy, its a start but better than before. i wanted to thank all of my friends that i have met along the way, i never had the chance to :< SELFIE TIME (no pictures from 6th bc i couldnt find them but i had cute scene hair cx if any of you remember) 7th ( View attachment 31859 ) Mid 7th ( View attachment 31860 ) end of 7th ( View attachment 31861 ) 8th ( View attachment 31862 ) early 8 ( View attachment 31863 View attachment 31915 ) now ( View attachment 32149 View attachment 32150 ) I loaf you all <<<3333 That up there, was about a year ago. So much has changed. Ups and downs, more downs than ups, I've made completely new friends. That I hope are in for the long run cx. I wanted to revamp this, and thank everyone that's been through my life with me and that HAS helped me. I know I used to be majorly rude, but now im only slightly rude, [an improvement right? xD] IGN ; foxsoul - gloomykitten My name is still Elize, I am currently 14 and slightly okay. I'm still surprised I still play on this server. I draw, I play the Alto Saxophone, I'm starting freshmen year, and I'm in a marching band. All these things should make me really happy, you'd think that right? Well, depression makes it majorly difficult. Sadness seems endless, you just want to sleep, slack on work and such. Life in the middle of being sad, was okay, I was happy. I realized 'hey, just fight' But as of recently It's all gone down. I've not wanted to do anything but cry on a daily basis, be sad and sleep. I've just though 'its endless, nothing will do, just give up' Even when I still know, it'll get better. [Side note ~ I really don't want pity like nO, that's frustrating, people saying all this stuff when we both know you're not sincere, pity is just ugh.] AnyWAys Ive recently have been majorly into bands, more than before [yes one direction is a band to me shhh] I have been listening to, BMTH, Issues, One Direction, This Wild Life, Famous Last Words, Pierce The Veil, and last but not least Sleeping With Sirens. They lift my somewhat lift my spirits. A message to you :3 Always, stay positive, never see the bad side to things or you'll pull yourself down deeper. Even if its hard, please try. Not trying keeps you stuck in your rut. And if you ever need someone, seriously, come to me, I don't judge easily, I support LGBT+ [I am pan myself n I support everyone ex; cis, asexual, genderfluid, they/them.] , I really try to keep my temper, I speak my mind in the kindest way possible, [and to you, those who have seen my angry/bad side, its because, im either trying to protect someone or youre a major twit] Stay safe lil children c:< NoW FOR DA SELFIE EVOLUTIOn 8th grade [just a bunch of me] Summer [I stole these pictures from my Instagram shh] LISTEN TO DIS PLEASE http://vocaroo.com/i/s0tPyNQU6YiV
